Back to the smoke

So off I go, I am going to embrace this 6 hour drive, hopefully I'll have some sort of bonding with myself, get to know myself and get in tune with my brain.

or maybe I'll just fall asleep at the wheel and die.

BYE!

Loving this song right now

I wish it wasn't christmas!

I have phone calls to make!

post to pick up and things to be bought! 

I've crawled back into my black hole

Fan-fucking-tastic.

I didn't get out of bed until 3pm. I haven't got dressed or put make up on for 2 days. 

I'm your biggest fan

I'll follow you until you love me 

home, but not home.

A beach near my Cornish home 

Thanks to Nicholas Bentham

For showing me this incredible photographer! 

http://jonathanleder.com/

seriously, worth checking out... I would put up an example of his work here, but I can't choose! 

I DON'T WANT TO BE FRIENDS

You know that I want you

And you know that I need you

I want it bad

Your bad romance

I want your love

And I want your revenge

I want your love

I DON'T WANNA BE FRIENDS 

The good photographers bank

I never ever remember to look on my favorites, so I'll just post any good photographers I find on here.

http://www.tommunro.com/photography

 http://www.hedislimane.com/

Fake romance

Pictures of me taking pictures

True Blood

So my addiction to True Blood got a bit mental, I literally didn't leave my bed until I'd completed both series. 

I fell slightly in love with Jessica... I won't give away what she is or who she is, but all I'm saying is, these photos are hot! It's times like these I regret destroying my natural hair colour, watch out, ginge is taking over. 

Dear Santa,

For christmas I want to look like this in my underwear. 

SCARS

New project, for uni, I'm photographing peoples scars, so if you've got any good ones, let me know!!

although I think my own could occupy me for a while! haha. 

never

Date the following: 

Guys in bands (especially drummers) 

male Photographers (you'll be constantly jealous of all the hot models he shoots, and how he "has to flirt to get the shot" 

Students, they can't keep it in their pants.

Male models... they're surrounded by the same hot models as the photographer.

Basically, no one in the creative industry. Stick to bankers, funeral directors, vets/doctors... all the men your mum wants you to date. 

I learnt the hard way. 

note to self

Look in the mirror more, you're not as bad as you think you are! 

youmightneverfindus.com

I shot these about 7 months ago for a t-shirt company, at the time I thought they were the best photos I'd ever taken, but now looking back I see so many flaws! 

The dumbest thing I've ever done

I just bought this coat from Urban Outfitters... £95...

Sent it to my old address didn't I. 

Oldies but goodies

make sure you check out

http://nhrb.tumblr.com/

but only because I've got a mention ;)

mwah.x

sums it up right?

"You don't make photographs, you make statements!"

I like that.

"oh, you're so 90's i-D, you don't make photos, you make statements. what the fuck is dodge and burn, when you've got a contrast slider..."

best insult I ever had, thanks to my good friend Thomas Griffiths. 

A public apology to a few people.

First off I'd like to say sorry to my ex boyfriends... For being the worst girlfriend in the world, and an even worse ex girlfriend. Ben, I'm sorry I was such a slut when we broke up, I'm sorry I tried to make you jealous all the time we were really good together and I'm sorry that I've ruined that friendship.

My head was in the wrong place, and lets face it... I'm really really fucked up.

Henri, I'm sorry I said such hurtful things to you, you really are the best friend I've ever had, I think about you every day

and my heart breaks when I think we might not know each other in a few years, you were the closest I've

ever been to a sister and I so desperately want you back... I'm not happy that you said I'm "pissing my life up the wall"

Because I'm most certainly not, but at the same time I'm sorry I had a dig at you for not having a job in London

I still look through all the photos of us and laugh, all the old conversations and texts, we had a sense of humor that no one else understood.

I really wish you all the luck with your job, and I'm really proud of you.

And sorry to everyone else I've hurt, sometimes I do things which I think are ok, but others don't, sometimes I don't see

when someone needs me and I'll carry on talking about myself. So again, I'm very sorry.

I don't really know who I am right now, I don't know what I want, and I don't believe in what I'm doing, I'm being lazy, jealous and angry, it's not a good look, and it's unhealthy. It's time I moved away from my past and started concentrating on the future. 

Rosie. x

fairly sure I'm a lesbian

would make things a hell of a lot easier... 

black hole

I'm in a black hole today. 

I hate my life. 

(in about an hours time I'll probably love it again)

stylenoir

Run by an absolute genius, my idol and hero, James Mills. 

http://www.stylenoir.co.uk

check it out 

o

Natalie

me...oowwwww

why can't I be like normal students?

why didn't I decide to go to a normal university, instead of the university of arts, why didn't I get a room in halls? why don't I go fancy dress with all my cool student friends and drink in the SU bar and go to student nights and get my cool student friends to model for me? 

instead I was handed this annoying gene, which makes me want to work my ass off and attempt to be better than everyone and never settle for normal, and to insist on only hanging around with people with real ambition and drive? 

WHY CAN'T I JUST BE NORMAL?! 

it's not even being a normal student, I can't just fancy someone, I have to FALL IN LOVE with someone, I can't just like a piece of clothing/designer... I have to get obsessed with them and get the logo tattooed on my arm. I can't just be content, I'm either extremely depressed or bouncing off of the walls with happiness..... oh jesus christ, why can't I just be normal? 

cheers guys

I tried to do a fashion shoot, but I was hung-thefuck-over. 

anyway, thanks a billion to Nick Bentham, James Mills, Sammie Nicholls and D1 models. 

I tried to do a fashion shoot, but I was hung-thefuck-over. 

This is my London.

Everyone meet Sammie. Another one of those inspiring types. (also Sam if you read this, you left your hair crimpers at my house, I told Sara to let you know if you come over that they're on my window sill ! but she'll probably forget!) 

Anyway, this shoot was originally for a uni project, to show how I can manipulate light... but I just like it as a shoot anyway... It got me a merit! woop! 

Oooo money honey

I go back to this shoot and find a new photo to use... some guy on flickr said; "yeah i know what you mean..i love that...just let a set sit for a while and when you look through them again you find a gem..its like finding a £20 note in a old coat...great shot. "  

A beach shoot

That I did in the summer, Henrieke Freeman and Maz Fentiman. 

my sisters keeper

I just watched this film, my mum bought it for 2 quid off of one of the kids she teaches at school, we wanted to watch it together but she fell asleep.... I sat and cried from the very start to the very end... it made me realise just how much I've abused my life, when I was given the chance to live, over so many people that didn't... I've abused my body and my dignity, for what?? am I happy? so it's ok to laugh about the dumb shit I've done, but how many people can stay they've had the two 'C's that no one wants... I'm a fucking idiot. when I get back to London, the bar will be raised. My life is a fucking miracle. 

Lady gaga and Katy perry????

so me and Candice walk in the pub the other day, and some old geeza goes "IT'S LADY GAGA AND KATY PERRY!" ummm.... cool?